[.[God's touch].] //* =)

I'm ALIVE

2005-09-12T19:48:00.000+07:00

oh my..its been a while since i have updated huh?..hmm yes yes..the sept holidays have been ok ok bah..except most of the time i stayed home..sick wad! what do u expect..den dunno pon how many trainings..2 leh!! stupid..now my arm very weak..still very tired..after school played a bit of bball (i'm nt supposed to) did some shooting..all floopy and off le..how.. -sniff- must jia you le..

anyway today after school the c boys 06 and b boys 06 played friendly with dunman..was quite an entertaining game.dunman was very quick and rough. i feel that our school's team lag speed.yeah.if they had speed they'd be a lot better. (:

Jia you kae guys?

hmm whole day so dizzy..kept sweating..is it the weather or me?..cos the whole day i "mao leng han"..dunno larh..oh well i wanna recover faster!! wanna play bball (:

well thats all bah..i better go study le..

bye world.

HELLO

2005-08-20T23:58:00.000+07:00

hellooooo world..hmm so many things have been happening since..since the last time i posted..yeah..

LATEST:

c'div girls are out of nationals.. -SNIFF- :'(
yeah..but at least we're top 8 in Singapore.. :)

I feel that through this the team has gotten closer..

this is just another stepping stone towards success next year..and the next..and the next!

YES! we can do it people!!

oh yes it was megan's birthday on the 18th..i smsed her :)) i'm so nice..she praised me for good memory!at least i think she did..did she?..

Also..my phone bill bao like XIAO liao..haven receive the bill yet..but i sure get caning or something de..sigh..then i'll be so lonely. TOO BAD.

hmm ok..this morning went to hweeli's house..suppose to meet at the bus stop after her house de..but i forgot..(too blur) so i alighted at her stop..had to walk all the way to prime mart there..den went for breakfast..hmm me hweeli leeyang weehoe huiwen n junrong..yupp quite fun larh. went to buy herbs for the ACC thingy..waste money only loh..after labeling the herbs..listening to mp3 (thanks leeyang) slacking..we went to play bball! leeyang huiwen and weehoe xiao loh! from the one court shoot the ball to the other..wah very straight loh..but nv go in..all hit rim de..so sad. then went home..JUNRONG I'M GNG TO KILL YOU! u arhh!make me take the wrong bus.though it went to the interchange it took me wad 30MINS. when i could have got there in 15?? U MAKE ME GO ONE BIG ROUND LARH.hmmph.monday see u i will personally see to this matter..

later in the afternoon i attended the church's 14th anniversary..short and sweet..i liked it. but then again. boring. there was good food though.so i didnt have to take dinner later..hmm later actually i wanted to go to changi airport..but no one could pei me there..so too bad..today so tiring..better go sleep now..

good night world.

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2005-07-09T18:01:00.000+07:00

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Team spirit..=)

2005-06-23T09:09:00.000+07:00

yay..our team has been doing well..well i feel like tat larh..we have good players! =) hmm we won all the friendlys so far..jurong..anderson..rgs..dunearn..wat other schs arh..=/ bad memory cant help it..haha..well i'm glad we did anyway. =) hmm our dear nana has been observing the team's relationship and i must admit i myself have the same views..most ppl dun like steph..but i think shes nice mah..is they dun see it..steph our co-cap!..jia you wor!!.. =) and yeah..i think i'm quite close to the sec ones larh..bt dun really like some ppl..so cocky sia..i think she thinks its funny or something but u shouldnt show off too much..xiao xin arh..dun think u very big hor..better show some respect ok.not everyone likes that kind of attitude.ya thats all i want to say..anyone frm the team reads this i hope u'll put in an effort to improve the team spirit k?..yeah thts all i have to say.the rest is up to u guys.

-peace"-

working

2005-06-17T21:03:00.000+07:00

argh..working is tough man..bleh..i quit working today n got my pay..yay..$49?..ok le bah..sian..its like tat de..work my butt off kena scolding (for nothing mind you) then get home smelling like..leftover food stuck in the garbage bin..ew.get $49 i think its quite little larh..anyway i promise myself to study hard n get a cert..hopefully can get an office position and rest my butt there!!..but i doubt i'd actually study hard anyway..owell.haha..

TATA!

job!

2005-06-11T09:20:00.000+07:00

wow..i found a job..=) hmm pays $4 an hour..workin hours around 12-7..and i'm hired!!..haha..ay muz come n eat some time..outside expo hall 3 - the terrace.. =D yay!..muz come k?..me n alina will be workin there..bt due to our trainin time,alina would b takin most of the afternoon shifts and me?the morning..-_- anyway..i hope this money may help my parents..at the same time earn some extra pocket money!..haha..yawn..well i'm really tired..gosh..some more nw wad time le..haha..go sleep again.. >_<

bye!

__me" x-

haiz..

2005-05-28T13:30:00.000+07:00

Wah my life is getting messed up man..my dad owes ppl so so much money..its more than 23K..wtf..haiz..what the hell did he do?..damn it business..wth..life sucks man..i dont see how god can provide the money?..i tink he left a few days to pay before he's declared bankcrupt..my parents are quarrelling over and over again..i guess i understand why my mum is so angry and violent these few days..the pressure of house work and office work is piling up..haiz..then my dad like nt doin anything..wth is his business doin man.this started like 12yrs ago..wth..he borrowed so much money frm my mum.and each time he says " i'll pay you back later.I'll pay you back later." haiz..almost all our savings are gone..my and my brothers included..pay his debt..all thanks to that damnit mohan person..curse you..how could u do that to us.i cant bear to think bout it.nw already suffering like shit..haiz..why didnt god help..=(

weeee~

2005-05-24T20:05:00.000+07:00

hahaa..today so happy..yay!..i won the shot put c div girls champion!yayeee..haha.. =)) so happy!! eh hui xin..sorry hor..haha..i didnt mean to de!..really!..dun angry hor..eeee..ok i feel bad now..haha..i'm glad the team is happy for me..haha..yay..dunno..jus very happy..hmm but my results not that good..i'm suprised my mum is like not very furious bout tt..she understands?..or she jus dun care..owell..i'll believe in option 2..anyway muz jia you le..end of year kao hao cheng ji!!haha..hmm bt everytime say nv do de..zZz..owell..ppl muz help me kaes? =) haha..k gtg..mummy scold..haha..byeee!

___smiles-'__

exams over le...results coming back..

2005-05-20T17:40:00.000+07:00

HAIZ..wah..first day after the short holiday jiu become bad day le..zZz..got back maths,chinese,science and home ed..sian..all did so badly..My maths papers jiu fail dao xiao..49/100..darn..then overall onli 46.9.. =( chinese ah..ying yong wen write until out of point..paper oso so lan..growls.gosh..i hate myself..anyway chinese confirm fail de.Hmm science i'm glad i did better le..63/100..Hope my overall for sci will b a lil higher..haha..DEN HOME ED..GOSH..I FAILED!!!!!!!!!!!47!!!!! haiya..so sad..my mum say i can score de..cos its jus a rmb n write subject..haiya.. =( den i kena scolding..she say cannot play bball..haiz..HAIZ..dunno..hope this is just one of her temporary warnings..sigh..i love bball..its my life..i know i slack larh..bt..haiya..i still do love it..owell.. =/ hais.. gtg le..dinner.. cya

-sadness.

wheres my home ed txt bk??!?!

2005-05-12T18:52:00.000+07:00

Ahhhh!wheres my home ed txt bk..='( so sad..my bk dun like me then run away arh..haha..i oso nv torture it..humph..so sad.haha..i onli can study my notes..owell..sian..zZz..tmr friday 13th gang gang hao gt home ed paper..curse?..i dont know.haha..so sad..=/ owell..i didnt study much..today slack like crazy..haha..come home early..den in the end crapping online with megan n cherine..haha..funny sia..stupid tall tree..-looks up..bald de.haha..hmm..megan de lao-gong-to-be today so sad..haha..ask him why dowan say..ah owell.haha..then study half way fell asleep on the bed..so shuang.but onli slept for 30mins liddat larh.yup..hmm..gtg le..gng dr 6 coffee express for dinner.haha..cya.

____[ jia you..]]"__

2nd day onli arh.. =/

2005-05-10T19:02:00.000+07:00

wah..by today onli finish 2 papers? gosh.. =/ so far geog and maths pass le..haha..i dont tink i did well for geog though..didnt knw how to phrase my answers and stuff..hmm..Maths i tink i did fine bah..=D haha..budden i dont wanna count on it..ltr gt back results so far frm my expectations how?..haha..safer to not rmb..haha..make myself worried onli..then ltr exam over cannot relax.haha..sigh..now go study science le..luckily studied a bit le..but i still dun understand chemical formulas..haha..dun ask me anything bout it cos i dont know a single thing!..haha..owell..after tmr is e.lit n home ed..speaking of which i lost my home ed txt..hais..haven studied too..=/ owell.die le..bleah..

__["jian chi xia qu.._]]__

1st may liao??

2005-05-01T09:59:00.000+07:00

OMGOMGOMG its 1st may le!OHDIE!!! gotta pia le..haha..so far..study geog onli..and a bit of maths.haha..hmm.no motivation larh..so sad right..>_< blah..owells..lol..everyone..MUZ JIA YOU LE!k i muz too..if not flung mid-year i die le..haha..cannot play bball cannot go out cannot go church..haha..so sad!pray for mee!haha..
okok gtg study le..
BYE!

[pia-ing]'

very sian day..

2005-04-20T17:45:00.000+07:00

Hmm its a wednesday..and..WEDNESDAYS ARE VERY SIAN.
ok anyway.
today co had their syf..dunno how it went..
haha..
owell.someone tell me the results!..
eh today saw the scary megan.haha..budden she help me hide shoe on saturday so nvm!haha..thanks you girl!
hmm..anyway today i played bball with shiling after school..haha..super funny..haha..hmm anyway i really got to brush up my skills le..i've decided..every wednesday play a bit of bball then go home.haha..East zones and mid year coming up le..better train and study..haha..yep..
i wanna do well for mid year budden i cant seem to study..cannot concentrate some more..hais..anyone wanna b my private tutor!?

[tired]'

family

2005-04-17T17:15:00.000+07:00

hmm i'd say today was good?..mummy,daddy,quan and me went to tm.haha..
We ate delifrance for breakfast..yay!so nice..hehe..
ya oh i bought a new pencil case!it says "whatever".hehe..best descibes me..Oh got other designs oso..got one thats "bleah :P" then another eh.forgot le.but very nice.haha..=)
Hmm..actually oso wanted to buy billabong tee..my mummy actually say it was ok loh.-shocked.haha..
then when i wanted to buy a design but no more stock le..=(
sho sad..
hmm..
ya then ltr went to have lunch.The mee sua so terrible!hard hard de..pooey..
>_<
owell..
haha..I study geog le..
yay so happy..
can slack now.
haha..
hmm..dunno if i study properly..
bt owells.
i always dun study de.
haha..

2005-04-04T18:03:00.000+07:00

Eh ok..my life's been terrible.
I hate myself.
I hate my life and everything in it.
yep.
I've given up one of the most important thing in my life.
Ok so i used to think it was important.Anyway i've decided to keep weekends off.
Nothing touches it.
I will study then go out with my friends or something.
Not gng there anymore.
-humph..
its like..time is draining me bit by bit.
i just cant solve some of the things;i cant find my way out..
And like now..i'm beginning to deprove in my sports..
sigh..
shes gonna take over me i guess..
but hey..she IS good..
1yr of training onli..
actually less.
and i'm lousier.
ok i give up.
ok summary?
i hate my life.

sorry and bye..

2005-03-22T20:21:00.000+07:00

ok..it may sound weird but i feel kinda guilty..well..its a long story..not very serious but i kinda feel bad..
hmm..ok my maid was forced to go back home..i dont know why my mum suddenly come back and say "UMI!GO BACK TO INDONESIA NOW!" scare me loh..
hmm..but that time she went out to buy something..my mum ask me go look for her and i wasnt allowed to say anything..i thought she might be happy to go home then cos that was what she had be telling me..that she wanted to return hm..
when she finally came home after searching like xiao,my mum scolded her like crazy loh..then she was really upset that my mum was sending her hm immediately..she was crying..and idk..my heart went out to her..if i was her..I'd feel really upset too..
hmm..yeah so there..
But i oso learnt through this that i've been kinda reliant on her..like every mornin..i will surely hit the snooze button de..then she muz come wake me up..Today first day without maid..feel like..
duno.
whole house so quiet..
I finished my hw so early..
haha..yeah..
guess thats all..
haha..

drifting....

2005-03-21T20:51:00.000+07:00

okaes..i'm drifting away from many ppl..idk why..close friends..idk..i feel left out..kk..bye..

disappointment..

2005-03-11T21:55:00.000+07:00

sigh..i'm really disappointed in myself..i cant believe i did that..Temptation got the better of me and in the end, i got myself into so much trouble.why did i lie?why was i so desperate?I'm the only one that knows now..God where are you..i dont know what to do with my life now..I walk everywhere in shame..so ashamed..
Though..I'm glad they all forgive me..i thought my life in ahs would have ended there..I'm thankful for having such forgiving friends and friends that really helped me through this times of difficulties..Hey guys u know who u are..I love u guys!Thank you for being with me each step of the way.I'm sorry that i broke ur trust in me..but i hope our friendship remains forever! (: thanks..

still sick..

2005-03-04T20:50:00.000+07:00

-Sniffs..
Ya I'm still sick..Didnt go to school today..haha..
Shan Min called me slacker..
haha..Not my fault!!err..my nose told me not to go to school..So did my forehead!
heh..
oh well..hey thanks for showing me concern guys..appreciated it.. (:
Hmm..Anyway..
Not going to school is a very very very sian thing..
Nothing to do at home.Mum dun allow..
Then whole day face comp,tv,ceiling and black face..
Sian lor..
-cough..
Hope i'll recover by tomorrow..haha..
Then can go for tuition w/ brinda my mentos..I mean MENTOR!!
haha..ya..
better get well soon!

-sniffs again

cya guys..

Sick..

2005-03-03T15:38:00.000+07:00

wow i'm sick..haha..physically larh..lol..I think i got flu and fever..Not so sure bout fever though..haha..sian..Just now in school feel so giddy..then still go for training..so sian lor..sigh..Now head pain oso..dun feel like doing anything..i cant breathe..block nose..was sniffing the whole day..Then just now at the stadium eyes like watering..Nose red red..Look like crying liddat..sian..
Oh ya..I'd like to thank dear kristy for providing tissue for me the past..3days?lol..aniwaes i tink i'll go take a nap..?ohwadever..

Ohyeah..Ahs B div girls is in the finals!!yay!!-clap clap..Good job..haha..Hope u enjoyed the 100plus..

-sick n tired..
[trying to cheer..]

Quan's bdae!

2005-03-01T20:16:00.000+07:00

Happy birthday lil one!!Haha..My brother's officially 7!!(but still as short..) shh..heh..Well aniwaes that lil peep is kinda poor thing i must say..Haven had a birthday party yet..haha..yay chocolate cake!!

haha..yay!AHS did well this round!haha..Half day on Thursday!!Hmm..sian..Thursday have maths test..siaaannzz..Then might have chinese remedial too..then got training??AhhH!!Spoil my mood..>_<
Hmm..just now had training..lol..now very tired..
Muscle aching..
hmm..i think i overstretched my back..Super pain lor..
Sian..Cant slouch..budden if i sit straight will hurt ltr..
sigh..
blah blah blah..

wah..

2005-02-28T17:07:00.000+07:00

Wah..today all the alumni came back..Haha..today released o level results & sec 3 04's chinese result..haha..As far as i know..Brinda and Janey got a1!!yay!! -clap clap
haha..
Oh Timothy got 10!Shi Han got 12!Yay!!Good job!(:
Hmm..
aniwaes today super boring larh..see mrs rod too much..lol..Dunno larh..then whole day sian sian wan..
sigh..
hmm well..thats all i guess..
haha..
see so boring right..?
Haha..
oh and tmr's wendy's birthday..
Happi birthday toooooooo uuuu!!!

-me.

like..or love..?

2005-02-26T10:34:00.000+07:00

_______tda difference`

[[_ wads tda difference btween lurffe n like?

`in front of tda prsn u lik, ur heartt beats fasterr.*bt in frnt of tda prsn u lurff, u get happy_

`in frnt of tda prsn u lurffe, winter seems lik spring.*bt in frnt of tda prsn u lik, winter ish stil e beautiful winterr.

`if eu look into tda eyes of e one u lik, u blushh.*bt if eu look into e eyes of e one u lurffe, u sMiLex.

`infrnt of e one u lik, ur mind ish blankk_*bt infrnt of tda one u lurffe, u haf lots to say.

`ifrnt of tda one u lik, u tend to get shy.*bt infrnt of tda one u lurffe, u can show urself_

`eyu carnt look straight into e eyes of e one u lik.*bt eu can oways stare n smile infrnt of tda one u lurffe_ (("v"))

`wen tda one u lik cries, u end up comforting_*bt wen tda one u lurffe cries, u end up crying tgt wif him/herr.*__

e feelin of lik starts frm e ear`+ bt e feelin of l0ve comes frm e eyex +*

so if eu stop likin e one u used to lik,_al eu nid ish to cover ur ears.``bt if eu try to close eur eyes,lurffe x `wil bcum__a dr0p of tearr n wil alwaes remainn in eyurr heartt`forevr //.by_zhiyingh-`

dedicated to Mr S. cheer up too..=))

ok ok day bah..

2005-02-25T23:48:00.000+07:00

Hmm...Today was ok i guess..Since its a friday,i had training..Felt kinda depressed today..well at first..Once training ended i went off le..Didnt really bother much cos i was so worn out..Both mentally and physically..sigh..

Then at nite got tuition..

haha..now at hm..haha..mr S is here once again..sianded..disturbing me..but he's tryin to cheer me up larh..so its nice of him..

HAHA!!Ohmy!!The almost the whole class has mary chan as their msn display pic!!lol..silly chimp-like person..haha..SUPER SPASTIC LORR!!!haha..
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v219/qiqi-/marychan.jpg
haha..check it out man!!LMAO..sigh..aniwaes its kinda late now..think i better go..mr s oso better go home arh..

Hmm..i tink i got to learn not to delight in temporary happiness..

buhbye-

saddening..

2005-02-24T17:07:00.000+07:00

sigh..so many things have been happeneing..
FAmily got problems..
School got problems..
Friends got problems..
Just when i thought everything was improving..
Is anyone there for me??

hellooo..

Looks like theres none huh..

God where are u..?

You dont seem to be there anymore..

somebody..save me..

TRASH!!! wohoo..!

2005-02-21T18:06:00.000+07:00

Wow...biig miracle!!AHS traash TKGS!!105-6!!Wow!!lol!!ahs girl's first 100!!Yay!!!
=clapclap!!= hee..good play guys..
Hmm..
I had a good talk with benedict today..Benedict is a really nice guy larh..Just a make over and maybe all the girls will go gaga over him!lol!! craaazy..hee..
Well neways nothin much happened today..very lil lessons..hee..o well..=)) its good..
hmm..
Walk down the "great wall of china" with Janey (charpooh²) hee..and brinda and their friends..lol..we were complimenting on how small Mr.S's brain is..lol..(hey how big can a vulture's head get?) well we've officially concluded him to be pea brained..!haha..
ok..guess thats all..haha..Mr.S is comin over with my dinner now..hee..(bullie him)

buhbye!!
-poohface

tired..

2005-02-18T23:07:00.000+07:00

yawn..Man i'm so tired..Today we had training under the sun again..i bcome dark dark le..lyke chao da liddat..>_< sobs sobs..not black enuff meh..Hmm..aniwaes i met charlene, jane n caron (rite?) lol..they told me all the baaaad things Mr S. did..Hmm..lol..nooottie boy..i'll get u ltr!!wuahaha..Hmm..ltr got tuition..sianzz..yawn..gonna kill Mr S soon so i better go slp now..haha..cya..

Happy Valentine's Day!! =))

2005-02-14T18:30:00.000+07:00

Haha..Today's v day!!haha..bought so much chocolate together with my cousin..haha..Mr. mysterious..(to some ppl) Lets call him Mr. S..(S as in S-hole..OKOK!Sorry!) anyway he was really nice to allow me to pay for most of the stuff... (SARCASTIC) hee..now he owes me money..Heh..I kinda like ppl oweing me money..why..? So when i'm bankcrupt, i can get back from them..lol.. Hey i cant help it..I'm a nice loan shark..Or loan crab..hee..Well i helped him deliever stuff today..To charpooh and Jane..lol..i gave something to Brinda too!!haha..hope u guys liked it..
Hmm..today B division girls started their matches le...Eeeee ngee ann girls wore pink...Eww..Yuk yuk..i think its disgusting..lol..Really..But my junior Felicia thinks its nice..lol..(pui..)
Haha..Mr. S saw Jane today!.lol..He was so excited he kept saying how cute jane looked all the way home..lol..well now at my house..Say "hi" Mr. S!!

Mr. S: Errrrr...hi.o_o -blinks

Haha..so cute..

Ahhh!!OMGOMG HE HIT HIS HEAD ON THE LIGHT!!ARGH!!BLOOD BLOOD!! *screaming*
-tick tock tick tock...........30 mins ltr..

Woah..ook..there are options to choose from..
1) he has a good trash-hold of pain
2)he's not human
3)he's just faking it

okok..Its not number 3..he knocked me..Alright!not number 2 either..-rubs head..
Hmm..yay..the bleeding stopping le..scary sia..haha..Jane 'kissed him'..
okok..no deeetails.....lol..kkz..i'd go for dinner now..maggie meeeeeee...lol..gonna cook...ohoh! Mr. S is cooking for me..lol..-whispers.."sure get food poisoning de.." hee..anyway..byeeeee...

-hyped out for God!

ang paaaaaosss

2005-02-11T22:40:00.000+07:00

Haha..yay..collected 100+ this year..kinda disappointed though..I used to get like..200+ last time?sigh..Cant blame them larh..not enuff money..haha..hmm..now my brother looking at the screen..haha..he's laughing at me..woah..his friend has 1000 over!!omg omg omg..lol..xiao..haha..there are crazy ppl in this world!!haha..wish i knew those ppl..hehe..

-sianed..

Reunion dinner..

2005-02-07T19:38:00.000+07:00

haha..
Today we had half day in school!!2 hours+ only leh!!heh..After school went to tampines mall to buy clothes..
lol..
And what did u know..
i bought a skirt!!
haha.. craaaazy...

-WaCkeD!

My grandpa just came..
haha..i love him!(though i dont get to see him much but..I still love him! =P )
hmm..i see him sleep quite scared leh..
scarly he suddenly stop breathing..(touch wood touch wood!but..)Waaah then i'll scream my head off lor..!!
Dont knw why i have such a weird fear lor..
sigh..

-shudder

wheee...lol..Just had dinner...STEAMBOAT..Super super full now..
lol..
Full of vegetables actually..
hmm..i love cabbage..Soft soft ones only..
heh..
hmm..what can i say..today quite boring larh..
Whole afternoon felt like sleeping..
haha..
Hmm..maybe i go slp soon bah..
But must let the food digest first..lol..Nite.. (:

-snore..

Pissed...

2005-02-06T19:38:00.000+07:00

sigh..Havent blogged for a while huh..aniwaes i dont know why but i feel so empty inside..Spiritual attack???
Sigh..I dont know..
Grr..Have been so frustrated n weak lately..Today i talked to benedict..(thanks ben!) Guess he hit the nail on the head or something..idk..(once again) and ya..I just felt like crying my heart out but i couldnt..Not in school..
-sobs quietly..
My life sux..So many things have been happening..I'm so pissed!!
-Cries..
i feel like no one's there for me..I'm so unsure bout my spiritual walk with God now..I guess i havent been turning to him..
why am i here..??
For some ppl to mock me??
They dont know what they're doing to my life..
They think they're mr big-shots..
I'm trying my best to give in to them..
joke along..
laugh it away..
I so wanna be friends with them..
Honest..
I wanna be part of them..
Right now I'm just a misfit..
God why do this to me..?
I never wanted any of the mocking to happen..
What did i do???

-outcast....

Hmm..

2005-01-22T22:20:00.000+07:00

Its a sat..Today's the first day of the CLT..Hmm..i didnt go..Not supposed to..Well i had leaders meeting..We went through quickly of all the sessions..Then session 4..Hmm..I'm targeting someone..But not sure if she christian or not..Hmm..sigh..I've been so tired..sometimes hype then tired for a loong time..

Todays sermon is my elder Andrew goh went gone..Haha..He's so crappy..Must make him my crapp shi fu!!haha..loved the train thingy..Sooooooouuuuup...Fish & chips,fish & chips..beef & carrots,beef & carrots...Rhubard & custard,rhubard & custard..coffee,coffee..haha..o well..Hmm gonna install sims now..haha..thanks ben ben!!Haha..

sigh..

2005-01-19T09:24:00.000+07:00

Wah..my mum a bit guo fen bah..Well i wanted to go for the CLT course..(cell leader training..) But when i asked my mum shes like "U arh!!SO MUCH ACTIVITIES,SEC 2 FAIL THEN U KNOW ARH!!NONONO!!!DUUUUN GO!!" i was so sad lor..But later i asked again then she said if i really did enough work and showed her i can study then i can go..So i was soooo happy!!So the next day....

I went home almost immediately after school!Ruuuuush home and then started doing all my homework..blahblah...revise revise..then go tuition some more!!Well as long as i do until my head pain larh.So at night i asked my mum again she said.."hmm...dun go..too many activities le..Later affect ur studies etc etc.." then i was so angry lor!!I rushed back home an did all my hw then get this kind of result..HAIzz...so sad..sobs..

Anyways to those who are attending the CLT have fun..

Whee..

2005-01-16T14:24:00.000+07:00

Haha..Yay!Had such a great birthday!!We al went to the sushi resturant at changi airport!!Whee..9 of us went!!Sam,simin,tootie,ysabel,camcam,ben kor,alina,robyn and me!!Haha..We had such great fun!!We ate and ate and ate!!Then came the fuuun bit .....=) SNAILSSS!!!!MuahHahahaha!!!! =D Veri nice to eat right guys??And for those who didnt try it,just a word from the snail expert..SNAILS ARE GOOD!!haha..

O wellzz then ltr we went to popeyes!!Eat chiiicken..Hmm..poor service but hey..Its still alright.. =P heh..They gave me ooonne bbiiiiiiggg chiiiiickennn!!!O_O haha..YAr..it was really big lor..well i da pao-ed it n brought it hm to let my family eat larh..haha..Then after that we went home..Haha..Sigh..11++ then reach hm..haha..then stayed up till 12 then slp..haha..

Well the day has been great..Thanks to all who made this possible..I wana thank my mummy,daddy,aunty,grandma,grandpa(up dere),my brothers etc etc etc.....=P

Biiiirthday...!!

2005-01-14T21:14:00.000+07:00

Yay!!My bdae in 1hr and 15mins!!Wheee..lol..I'm sooo excited!!Hmm..dun think my parents prepared anything much though..hmm..lalalalalalalalalala...Feel so crappy!!!AAAhhh dunno wad to do!!!haha..Blogg tmr larh..hehe..see how things go!=)))

TirEd..

2005-01-13T18:29:00.000+07:00

Hmmmzz..Just came back frm sch..Hahazz..Had such a cool P.E today.lol..Sho fun lorzz..The guy's coach is so funny..haha..I think he has a veri effective way of training ppl..haha..Yar..He's a gd coach..So shuai..So dark..LOL!!xiao..Ay i dun have crush on older men k..>_<>

[Wheeeee....*]

2005-01-11T18:20:00.000+07:00

hahazz...Vels bdae today!!Whee...haha..We went to sweeeensens!!Hahazz..Then we went high..Hahazz..So funny lor!!We used ysabel's phone to record a video..Hahz..Sho funny lorzz..Hmm..I got a few pics of her larh..Hahazz..Only got one on comp..lol..Haha..HOPE U ENJOYED TODAY VEL!!!I LOVE U! [MuAcKzXX..*] hahaz..

I'm baaaack...

2005-01-10T19:29:00.000+07:00

Well actually i was all the while online..Hahaz..Just didnt bother to update..hahazz..Wll i went out with Yi Han to tm!!Haha..Shes ooone crappy girl!But hey we had fun!Heh..Hmm..Yepp..At first wanna buy prezzie for vel de..budden really really dunno wad to buy..Walk all over tampines with Yi Han then dunno what to buyyy!Hahazz...So funny..so in the end go hm without anything..lol..

First day of school...

2005-01-01T16:37:00.000+07:00

Lol..hey..First day of school..so boring lor!!!We spent so much time on this stupid and pathetic dedication service..It was soo boring!! Oh yar we got a new principal..HEr name is Dr Boon...(we call her dog bone) Hahaz..Aniwaes..On the first day,I forgot to bring my report book!!Ahh..Well aniwaes we filled in target settin forms..Sigh..i really wanna go triple science..But then again..How can i..all my results all so bad..Fail dao xiao..haha..oh yar..DEN ARH!!Our school got 2 time tables le..go confusing..N so irritating..sigh..Today bag oso heavy..den now so stress..haha..well..i'll blog another time..

Last day of the year?????????

2004-12-31T19:36:00.000+07:00

Wooooow...!!This year flew past really fast!!haha..So many things happen this year!My walk with God has become stronger and stronger!!God has just done so many wonderful things in my life!!Making me a cell leader was one of his great works!!I couldnt never think of myself being a cell leader!!God has also let me meet loads of wonderful ppl!hehez..Cannot name cos too many le..lolz..But i love u guyyz!

I just wanna say that I'm sorry if i've offended any of u and made any mistakes...Yupp..I also wanna thank all those ppl for stayin beside me when i needed them,ppl that cheered me up when i was down,ppl who have guided me throughout this year..!!!!U guys rock my world!! =D Oh yar..Just wanna tell those ppl who were quite mean to me before that i'll still support u when u're down.Come look for me k?

Oh yar..Some big changes..I've slimed down!!yay..lol..frm 60++kg to 52kg!!Yay!I only big cos i got big bones okzz..dun believe me i dare u to press my waist!!Haha!!and well as i THINK u can see..I'm beginning to like pinkk!!hahazz..see my blog?so pinky..lolz..

well..I'm just prayin tat 2005 will be a great year for all of us!Cos i bet its gonna be a really fun year!!God bless 2005 and...U!!!

Tiiired..

2004-12-30T17:38:00.000+07:00

Hahaz..Today had match with Yu ying..Waaah..They damn fierce lor..Anihow push then scold scold scold..Then push and scold scold scold again..haha..Farnie ppl..But i think they're good larhz..Play quite well..Got one big big one..Waaah come and elbow me arh!!Veri damn hard lor!!Grr..lol..aniwaes..Was really really painful at first..But after a long long while ok le..So now i'm sittin here all aching like xiao..Oh btw..We won 38-29..=)

Oh oh oh!b4 i forget..tuesday enter de score wrong le..it was 46-23..Hehe..

CeDaR MaTcH...

2004-12-29T10:43:00.000+07:00

Yay..!We won cedar!!Bot2 times i tink..64-32 rite? well anione knows plz tell me kkz?Err aniwaes I had fun today!Went to school for match against cedar girls..yepp..Then went to see our juniors at the orentation..yuppz..haha..They lke not enthu liddat..Mass dance tat time nv dance..Haha..Tonite they gonna have camp fire..
haha..
Ay vel..veri bad lor u..say wanna go with me to school de..then in the end nv go..Haha..But nvm lahz..Cos today end quite late..yuppz..Hahazz..Tat's all i did today lor..
kkz..
Gonna go have dinner le..
buh byee!!

sho tired...

2004-12-27T14:52:00.000+07:00

Hahaz..Heeello...Wad a tiring day!!Hahaz..This mornin we had our second cell group!![yay p6-6!!] Hahz..we had mcdonalds for breakfast..den later we went around tm and century square..hahaz..
Yepp..my little p6es had fun yea?haha..Went to arcade then slack slack slack..haha..
Den went isatan to buy chocolates..haha..Ltr me and Brinda walked around tm aimlessly..hahaz..sho farnie lor..well yar..

Sho ltr, i went to raffles place to meet phay key and velvarie..haha..den along came pk's friends, Nicholas and er..dunno..haha..4got le..sorry!well we made our way to the Mac along Clak Quay tat side..[i tink so] well aniwaes pk so cuuute!!Fell for the heat radiation trick!hehe!!Sorry pk!!Went out of control!! =)))Hehe..Yar..so ltr all 5 of us went to AHS's band concert!!yay!!haha..so we went in..blah blah..listen to ahs's wonderful band!! then went ta marina square..haha..Tat nicholas arh!Make us walk around marina like stupid idiots!!Ltr walk until the marina bay leisure dunno wad then realised the bolling ally was closed!Ahh..hahaz..sigh..well aniwaes ltr me n vel went to PR mac then eat ice cream n talk talk talk..haha..

Yepp..tats about it..hahazz..Gonna sleep le!so tired..! Nitezz...! =)

Aww..=(

2004-12-26T23:14:00.000+07:00

Wellz..Just some stories i decided to take from phay key cos it was so touching!! Thanks pk!

...It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain would go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her.

I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.
She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words...

Christmas eve..And CHRISTMAS!!

2004-12-26T03:00:00.000+07:00

Heeey!!Haha..Just wanna remember this two most memoriable day of my life!

24th dec 04 Christmas eve..
Yay!!We had our christmas musical!!After sooo many day and hundreds of hours of practice,I'm glad it all paid off!Whee!!I'm go glad that we have so many salvations,rededications and assurances!!Yay!!43 u know!Yeppz!!I'm so happy that i managed to smile throughout the show!I really felt so happy that we finally could pull it off!!Hahaz!!Praise the lord!! ((=
Then later,i went with sam and co. to her aunt's house!It was sooooooooo fun!God has blessed them with a happy family.How i wish i could have such a family...Sam..Gotta treasure k..=)Yepp..Ltr when we had to go home,we took a cab.haha..guess how much frm west coast to east coast..? $33.45!!Hahazz..wow rite?well then ltr slept over at her house..Yepp..we slept at 4+ hahazz..Had 7hours of sleep..hahaz..till 11am..Yawn..now tired le..

25th dec 04 Christmas!!!
Hahazz..after i came back from sam's hse..(bout 3+ i tink..)Well aniwaes i kana scoldin..hahazz..den parents scold scold..hehe..Phew..at first kana banned frm going to heather's hse..budden ltr could go cos i finished my hw!! =D haha..We played water bombss!!hahazz got so wet!(derrick!!)hahazz and ltr came home..which is..now..hahaz..Well g2g sleep le!hahazz veri veri tired..Love u guys!bye christmas!!We'll miss ya!

so bored..

2004-12-24T00:24:00.000+07:00

Haiz..Its 9 in the morning and no ones online..
everyone still sleepin huh..
I got ta get ready to go to church..
Yuppz..
Our final rehearsal!!YaY..
Hahazz..budden one things ish tat muz put make up..
Haiz..
Well to u guys who are going for the christmas story,
Be sure to enjoyed it!
Cos We've put in hours and hours of sweat and hardwork to put this together..
Hmm..lemme see..i've invited alina..Velvarie..[pk haven confirm..] Hmm..connie cannot come..so sad..
Cam!Better come arh..ltr vel complain so sian how??Heh..

Neeeways...buh bye!g2g le!!

Hmm..

2004-12-23T09:31:00.000+07:00

Well just realised a day passes really quickly..Yuppz..24hours seems really long ritez?But its actually really short..so u guys muz take care,remember to learn from mistakes and do things properly..Time is precious!!
Hahazz..why am i giving a speech..weird..
Well aniwaes..
Today we had cg!!but onlie 6ppl..sho sad..actually wanna give the chocolates out today de..but yer..hahaz..
Everyone not there..
Ben!!Cam!!Better come for cg n the christmas story!Ltr i dun gif u chocolates arh!!Hahaz..
Den later today heather and sam sam came to my house..heather play my comp..
Den bang bang bang on my poor poor keyboard!
Hahaz..Poor things..
[refering to the keys]..hahazz..
Den i changed my blog skin today..I onlie saw winne the pooh..den suddenly heather pointed out it was pink!!!Ahh!!hahazz..well i guess i'll have ta live with it!
Memo to myself..buy chocolates!!..

buhbye!~

WOoOoo..tired siazz..

2004-12-20T19:04:00.000+07:00

Hey hey..hahaz..whats up...?Just got back frm church yupp..hahazz..Had such a loooong day..Rehearsal from 12 to 7..so tired..haiz..well aniwaes i'm so glad God came back into me when i realli realli needed him.Thanks God!!Love you!!Mwuahzz..hehe..Doesnt God rule??*grinzz* haiz..i going to buy make up for the musical le..[eww]..yuppz..buh bye!

i knew it!

2004-12-20T09:19:00.000+07:00

See la!Just as i suspected..My mum come home onli scold scold scold..Sianz..Den last night so angry wit my parents cos i tired le they still force me go for dinner..dun friend them..Den my father made me walk there den i nv eat then walk back again.So in the end i nv eat dinner...
Aniwaesss...Nicol jie jie said i was veri silly to get angry over such a thing..Yepp...tot so too..so i went to apologise..So guai rite?? =) Oh yar..Nicol Ong is my new jie jie!!Yay!!And I'm her chocolate meiz..hahazz..cos i'm so sweet!!Hahazz..
Newayss..i betta go now..mummy gonna scold le..yuppz..Buh bye!!Remember to tag!!

QiQi-

No more freedom???//*

2004-12-20T09:08:00.000+07:00

Awww!!!Mum comin back tonitezz..
Hahazz..
No more freedom lehzz..Hahazz..So sad..hehezz..

Well aniwaes..I had my first cell grp today!!
Went quite well i guess..Brinda woke up late..Hahazz..so cute..Jeanette woke her upzz..lolx..
we went to joel's hse to have cell..all together got 6ppl..including me n Brinda..yepp..I believe tat God will help us through out our leading of this cell and yea!God will provide us with the no. of lil sheep to take care of cos he knows what we can handle!!For god will not ask us to do things we cant!Yepp!God rawkz our world!!
Ooo going to pick my mum up lehz..buh bye!!
God bless guys..!!

Wheee..//*

2004-12-12T11:25:00.000+07:00

Yo yo yo!haha..wheee..!Had such a great time at Sentosa today!however had to wake up soo early tat i slept through the train ride to habour front..heh..ltr at the beach,soo many ppl kana dunked..haha..but luckily i nv..So pro rite??=D Charlene arh..come n hug me..den become all wet..hahazz..We burried Shi wei,timothy and PJ under sand!!heh..budden ltr started rainin le..so everyone had ta go home..so sad!neways i so enjoyed today!!Haha!!Thanks Charlene,Daniel n everyone else who put in the effort to organise this!!HUGS!//*

Wheeeeeeeee..//*

2004-12-03T08:48:00.000+07:00

MY FIRST POST!!AHHH!!haha..Just finished trainin..haha..so tired..At library now..supid bell ringin like xiao..Driving me nuts!!Ahh!!Sigh..dunno why..dun ask me wor..
Well anyways I'm sho excited!Cos Camp is inching nearer!Yayee!haha..Haven pack my stuff yet thou..still got my shoes n other stuff..haven get..heh..I wonder how its gonna b like there man..Gonna be so fun n exciting!so wasted arh..some of u not goin..[u noe hu arh!] heh..Last year camp rawked man..had so much fun.i encourage u guys to go for next years!gonna be fun fun fun!!hahaz..neways gonna go le..haha..See ya guys at camp!!

Wooooochie! =P

[.*[God's touch]*.] //* =)

I'm ALIVE

HELLO

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Team spirit..=)

working

job!

haiz..

weeee~

exams over le...results coming back..

wheres my home ed txt bk??!?!

2nd day onli arh.. =/

1st may liao??

very sian day..

family

sorry and bye..

drifting....

disappointment..

still sick..

Sick..

Quan's bdae!

wah..

like..or love..?

ok ok day bah..

saddening..

TRASH!!! wohoo..!

tired..

Happy Valentine's Day!! =))

ang paaaaaosss

Reunion dinner..

Pissed...

Hmm..

sigh..

Whee..

Biiiirthday...!!

TirEd..

[Wheeeee....*]

I'm baaaack...

First day of school...

Last day of the year?????????

Tiiired..

CeDaR MaTcH...

sho tired...

Aww..=(

Christmas eve..And CHRISTMAS!!

so bored..

Hmm..

WOoOoo..tired siazz..

i knew it!

No more freedom???//*

Wheee..//*

Wheeeeeeeee..//*

[.[God's touch].] //* =)